Not Today

 Sitting here watching someone's dog and I can't decide what I want to watch since I only have my lappy with me.   I found a thing that discussed the original novel behind ROP and it's interesting that the Zhiwei character seems like she was at least as ruthless as Ning Yi.  Bc in the drama version of ROP, they wove a certain ridiculous idealism into Zhiwei's character that allowed her to be offended far too much at the things Ning Yi did. And furthermore, led to the ridiculous ending where she decided she couldn't live with the trail of death that she and Ning Yi wrought.  Despite the fact that most of those deaths were due to others trying to kill THEM and those others often killed innocents who were in the way. Like Shaoning for example.

But don't let facts get in the way of your tragic ending. :B

I said I understood and even accepted the ending, but tbh, I like the idea of a Zhiwei who gave no fucks right along with Ning Yi. I also saw some promo pictures that highly implied Zhiwei and Ning Yi marrying after the latter became emperor, so I wonder whose ass they pulled that ending out of. 

Aaaaanyway lol.  As I've been catching up on everything Chen Kun lately I watched the Mojin movie the other day. It was aight. Nothing amazing. Visuals were good but it was very short on plot and there was absolutely ZERO excuse for Chen Kun and Shu Qi's characters not to kiss at the end please.  I was also highly amused at the first flashback where all the dumb commie kids pulled down those old statues and got eaten alive by demonic insects. 8D  In things that should happen IRL.

I found Chongqing Hotpot on YT though and like Mojin, I've been wanting to see that for awhile too. It seems like a dark?? comedy of sorts and believe it or not, as hot as Chen Kun is, he's also quite funny. 

I wanted to try Psych Hunter but it looks like my only real choice is those pirate sites bc it's not on YT and it's only available for IQIYI VIP.  My gosh it's so annoying though whenever I go to shoutboxes on MDL and have to watch a bunch of dumb girlies bitching about female characters in dramas. Like, just say you hate women and go.  No one ever ranks on the annoying male characters as if there's not any. They are always saying the female characters are in the way of their perceived bromance lmao, like sorry to inform you, but guys can be close close best friends and still be into girls. sTUpid incels.

Twitter is so boring mid-afternoon my time like everyone's asleep. One of the many things I hate about stan twt is when ppl defend their fave by dragging the person's fave who's dragging THEIR fave. As if that makes it better or makes any kind of difference. Been constantly seeing Chanyeol fans drag Chen in response to presumably Chen fans dragging him and it's like????  Kay. Now you're a trash idiot too yay. I also don't understand why PCY fans have to insist that his ~scandal~ was definitely not true. It's like the Jim Jones nonsense with Suga. The best way to shut these idiots up is just say you don't care. I don't care if PCY cheated on his girlfriend with every hot girl in Seoul. I seriously do not.  I don't care that Suga used a sample of a Jim Jones sermon. I still have that copy on my hard drive and listen to it all the time. 

These are not real problems, you weirdos. Where PCY sticks his dick has no affect on your life. Jim Jones is dead. A sample of him saying some random verse in the Bible won't hurt you. If you didn't know who was saying it, you'd be none the wiser. Knowing changes nothing except in your stupid head. 

I saw some quote from Suga that was so wise. THe gist of it was something like, most of your problems are in your head. He was talking about himself like, he realized that most of his perceived problems were in his head and that's exactly right. Too many people let foolish shit get to them.

 SHINee's Jonghyun committed suicide yesterday.  It was the first thing I saw on my Twitter when I logged in that morning.  Even though I'm not a big SHINee fan, more of a casual one, I was in total disbelief and shock.  I thought it was an accident maybe until I clicked on the article and saw it was suicide.  Apparently he had a fairly open struggle with depression over the years, but still.  It oddly hit me really hard, not only his story, but I just felt bad for all the fans of SHINee and of him and the other members, I mean I do stan Taemin, not to mention EXO whom I'm sure probably had a good relationship with him.  

And yet, every time there's a celeb death, there always has to be that contingent of edgelords that get on a soapbox and try to trivialize and mock the people who are sad over their passing.   I mean, I agree, some expressions of grief aren't exactly logical, but who would expect them to be?  Maybe music and art means nothing to you, but to plenty of people it holds a lot of meaning.  Some years ago, two vocalists from VK bands I liked died.  One was most definitely suicide and no one really knows about the other one.  Neither one of them were favorites for me personally, but bc they were in bands I liked and listened to for some years, both of their deaths hit me really hard.  Like, it was hard to comprehend never hearing their voices again.  That's what it's like with Jonghyun.  NOt a favorite voice of mine at all, but trying to comprehend SHINee without him is just...ugh.

The thing is, when someone dies from the celeb world that I don't care about, I just don't say anything.  Like, how hard is that actually?  If you don't care, then be quiet.  But don't mock others for being sad and get on your soapbox.  People who don't like SM and Kpop were falling all over themselves to blame both for his death and telling people they shouldn't/couldn't be sad bc they were supporting SM and Kpop.  But it's like, ok really though?  SHINee renewed with SM, so obviously they weren't having a problem with them, they wanted to stay together and on that label.  Further, Idk if you can reduce a lifelong struggle with depression to the fault of a company and an industry.  And if Kpop and SM are solely responsible for depression and suicide, you're ignoring the stigma against it in East Asia period and the people who have died not connected to either one.

And finally, as problematic as some of these companies are, they're still providing opportunities for girls and guys pursuing their dreams of being singers and dancers and actors.  I've literally heard many of them say that it's all they wanted to do.  Tbh, I think some of these people don't want to look at themselves and realize the role they play as fans.  Someone brought up a good point in Omona about how easily people go to celebs' SNS and post hateful comments.  Whether it's to do with their music or them doing something you don't like (like yanno, hairstyles or dating), there's no need to attack them over it.  People feel far too free to loudly voice their dislike and hate on stuff and it's just like...why?  If you don't like it, be quiet.  

Anyway, I briefly saw some TV footage of celebs visiting his funeral hall and BTS was one of them and Suga looked really upset and ugh I know he's struggled with depression as well so I hope he's ok. :(

 Because I went through the most recent comebacks, i.e. Twice, EXID, Seventeen and Monsta X.  For starters, Seventeen wins.  That album was solid all the way through and the three songs I loved: Clap, Bring It and Flower were just hnnnng so GOOD.  I had to repeat them a few times by themselves.  The Twice album was fun, better than Signal, I especially liked Rollin' and Likey was cute af too.  Idk why people hate on them lol, they're cute, but not like sickeningly so?  Idk. I probably can't explain why I like them since it seems to go against my main taste.

EXID album was at least solid and I loved the title track a lot.  Was laughing at a certain comm's tired male gazey blahblahblah comments like omfg what am I then?  Because I was quite enjoying that glass floor, LE's pleather pants and Junghwa in the blue outfit like sssssssss hot.  They own sexy concepts and am I being pandered to?  bECAUSE i LIKEY likey likey lmao.

So Monsta X...ahahah, Idk how I feel about them tbh.  FOr one thing, I'll never be super into a group with such a stupid fandom name, but Idk, I have 200 plays and I like a lot of their songs, but sometimes they're like old!BTS lite and their songs blend together and Idek one from the other and that's kinda how I feel about this album.  The first song had some good parts and then so did Now or Never, but then neither one of them "did it" for me so to speak.  So Idk.  I'm basically at the same place I started.  It's aight, but nothing stood out.

Overall takeaway, I'm happy both Seventeen and MX got their albums on SPotify super quickly.  That's what I WANT to see.  Can't say the same about the girl groups unfortunately.